Quick Thought

 

I am so accustomed to internalizing and absorbing.  I definitely think it is from a lack of boundaries.  I am writing right now because I can't think of anything else to do.  I could go workout or make art (paint, draw), but for some reason today, I am not feeling capable.  Not like in a I lack skill kinda way, but in a how much longer will I do these things type of way--the type of way that feeds more isolation and less community.  The type of way that is still engulfed in self, but trying my best to get out of my own way. I want the type of way that's like a kid: just do the thing because you love it and enjoy it, but when a business is attached to what you do, it doesn't feel as innocent anymore. 

Writing is always good medicine, and the fact that somebody can find this writing once I am finished is consoling enough.  For the record, let me just say that I am tired of universities and folk talking about AI use--it's out here--integrate it better and stop penalizing people for being resourceful.  I also want to say for the record forget whatever you think about whatever it is and look with as fresh of eyes as possible.  Our ideas around things are shifting over. It doesn't matter all the distractions and such. We are evolving ideologically and tat needs to be embraced. A person like a business must adapt and be resilient. Or not. They can keep going the way they go and see if they survive. 

So idk why I wrote these things, but had the desire to write, wanted to share it without going through Facebook or what have you, and that's really the truth.  So, I just wanted to type these things to get them off my mind before I get ready for work.  I hope you have an excellent day!