Hallucinate about freedom: quick thoughts on confessional poetry, surrealists, DJs, and another screenshot of a poem

 Are my poems confessional? Are they surreal?  I do not know. I think of them as freestyles. But I would be lying if I were not to admit that I read some poems by Lowell in college and they were inspirational.  I would be lying if I were to say that surrealists haven't excited me, even those thought of as everything but surrealists like Marilyn Manson and Ye.  I cannot lie. Or rather, I will not lie. 

I mean, I really started enjoying creating when I began freestyling and practicing improv and learning that Rakim was influenced by jazz music.  Me too.  Or when I started to DJ--thank you Besbeleve and Nexx and The Mixologist for serving as inspirations and aids in that lane.  And yeah, I can't deny my influences, I can't deny my true process that I enjoy, that makes life seem okay, that relieves me from the pressure, from the pressure I feel almost everyday.  Pressure from who? Not a who but a what.  The thoughts of my mind, the feelings of my heart.  But I do not want to only self-indulge.  But I hope to dive in enough to eventually get sick of myself again, get re-intune with the world around me that God made, not just my inner world. Where the lines of difference blur into the same world, like how the Native Americans used to talk about it.  Inner and outer, one world, one truth--still not the whole truth, but got it in part, as Paul wrote. Oh wait, I keep forgetting I'm already dead and dead to the world.  Gotta remember that it doesn't matter one way or another to a dead man.

Anyway, here's a picture of Robert Lowell and Elizabeth Bishop looking cool and calm and at peace on a beach:

Credit: Recontructionary Tales, https://reconstructionarytales.blog/tag/robert-lowell/

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(Lowell and Bishop in Brazil, 1962. Photo: Vassar College Library via the New Criterion)

More on Lowell and Confessional Poetry:

Plath remarked upon the influence of these types of poems from Life Studies in an interview in which she stated, "I've been very excited by what I feel is the new breakthrough that came with, say, Robert Lowell's Life Studies, this intense breakthrough into very serious, very personal, emotional experience which I feel has been partly taboo. Robert Lowell's poems about his experience in a mental hospital, for example, interested me very much."^[12] A. Alvarez however considered that some poems in Life Studies "fail for appearing more compulsively concerned with the processes of psychoanalysis than with those of poetry"^[13] 

In a poetry class he taught at Boston University in the late 1950s, Lowell would go on to inspire confessional themes in the work of several prominent American poets. In 1955 Lowell requested a position at the university in part based on the suggestions of his psychiatrist, who advised Lowell to establish a routine in his life to help mitigate the effects of bipolar disorder.^[15] Lowell's class drew in a number of talented poets, including Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath. 

-Credit: Wikipedia, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Confessional_poetry

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